Wow, am I really on Day 6 already?! I tell ya, yesterday I was actually itching to work out. Now listen, NEVER in all of the times that I’ve worked out, have I felt like that. Usually, after two hard days of working out, I pretend I need a day off because I’m too sore. But there I was last night, thinking to myself that I could still get some pilates in before my bedtime snack. Perhaps it’s because I’ve done so well this whole week that I almost feel like by taking a day off, I’ll start to fail. That I’d wake up this morning and suddenly find an excuse not to work out. One day turns into two, two turns into a week, and suddenly a month goes by and you start feeling down on yourself because you didn’t do the things you said you’d do. I don’t want to turn into that, I don’t want to be that.

So since I took a break from working out yesterday, I really did focus on eating. Made sure to have a piece of toast with my breakfast, just for that little extra bit. At dinner I made myself a heaping pile of spaghetti and almost forced myself to eat it all. It’s not like it wasn’t good, it was just that suddenly now I know I’m eating with the intention of trying to gain weight. And somehow it always ends up that no weight gets gained. Here’s where I’m at mentally—–I’m trying not to pressure myself. Because I do that sometimes. That’s why I had to just decide to let go of the ass obsession the other day. I noticed today that my thighs are a little more defined, more muscular. And I reminded myself that it takes time. Slowly, I’ll see the results. If I just keep going, I’ll see it.

This blog has been very helpful, I gotta say. Just coming here and saying “Enough. I’m on the 8-week transformation tip. Let’s do this.” seems to light a fire under my butt or something, ’cause I don’t think I’ve been this motivated in a long time. Things in my personal life haven’t changed, I’m still at a standstill as far as important thing that need to be taken care of……but somehow I just feel so different, and I’m no longer feeling dragged down by that. Let’s hope that feeling continues….